Guys I need to get some stuff off my chest.

1) My birthday is coming up. The 14th. But I won't be celebrating it irl. I don't deserve it. I shouldn't have a party. It's also my "golden" birthday. I may make a contest for it but I don't want to tbh. It'll just remind me of all the people who care about me far away instead of the people who are here for me irl. 

2) Jacob is going to call me for my birthday present...

3) I miss my smile. My parents actually yelled at me since I haven't been "Christian" enough. 

4) I have been trying to get help...It was working for a while but then...I did it. I ripped the cloth. I dropped the melon. I spilled the punch...I'm really sorry

5) I'm sorry for all of my crappy update dolls. I know you guys are expecting more from me. I just can't take it. Yes I get it. I'm 13. I have "hormonal issues". I should be a happy go lucky child. And I may not even have any creative blood in me. But why is it that some woman/girls on her get to be dubbed "queens" or "goddesses"? I have seen many great dolls made by non-"queens" and yet they never get noticed. To be honest, I wish I got a little more attention. Yes I know my dolls are as impressive or goregous or detailed than others but if they have over 200 views and not a single comment, it kills my heart. I spend time on those dolls for you! Not just for "Oh I worked on this for 3 hours I should post it for nothing". I don't have time to work on dolls for days on end. I can't come up with new ideas. 

I'm sorry for EVERYTHING!

Once my membership runs out, I am pretty sure I am not renewing. 

Don't hate on me.

I have freedom of speech and I should not be battered for it. 

bye.